My middle name is Sue, i live in Michigan, i have three cats and a frog, i love to clean my ears, I am a dancer, I love cows, I am a Christian, I love to floss, I don't have braces anymore, I wear contacts, I wish i had a little sister, I'm a sophomore in HS, I have OCD, The color lime green makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, I can knit, I am creative, I like scrapbooking, I love to watch Strong Medicine, I've been dancing since i was six, I have Barbie toothpaste, I started crying in DK when we read a story about tornadoes, I love little kids, I'm not at all boy-crazy, I despise school, I've been to national dance competitions 3 times and placed in the top ten, I like Diet Coke better than regular,I like beading necklaces, I love studying Psychology, My glasses are broken, I don't like to judge people, My newest passion is horses, Sleeping sounds very appealing, I'm studying Sign language, I hate chalk boards/chalk, I want a pony, I love tubing, Dakota Fanning is the cutest little actress ever, My room is pink, yellow, and lime, I can't sleep without socks, I trim my fingernails pretty much everyday, I have an astigmatism in my left eye, I love Lifetime TV, Maroon 5 is awesome, and I favor forks over spoons.
Interests:um i'm a dancer.. i'm also trying to "recover" from anorexia.. depression... self-injury... anxiety... and... OCD.. yep Expertise:getting in the way, being dumb, making "bad decisions", angering people, being annoying, being mad, being just an incredibly happy person :-\
okay so i get this call from some lady. and so apparently last year when i filled out my "interests" for a chance to win a scholarship i selected modeling, and now she wants me to come to an interview and if i get accepted i will become a payed model! *don't get my hopes up* i doubt i'd make it anyways.
anways. i quit dance. i'm gonna miss competing so much but i'm just too busy and i need the job at the Dance Center. At least i get to dance and get paid.
YES I GOT THE JOB!! I'M GOING TO BE A DANCE INSTRUCTOR/RECEPTIONIST AT THE DANCE CENTER!! WEEEE!!
ook soo anyways. the last few days i have been looking at pro-ana sites. i was looking at peoples xangas and then announcing their pro-ana sites to friends. but the more i read them, i started missing that way of life. but at the same time, not really.
i mean, i feel that there is a complete difference between pro-ana and anorexia (same for pro-mia and bulimia).
i mean pro ana is basically saying hey i want an eating disorder to 1.) lose weight 2.) gain attention. So here people go on their sites wanting to starve themselves because they've seen how all these other people are doing it or because maybe just maybe they can get someone's attention if they do this. Maybe a friend or crush will notice and offer their support, maybe everyone will notice and they get lot's of attention, maybe it's practically a trend- it sure is at our school. People finally start to notice you and worry, and finally any attention is better than none at all. So here's the pro-ana's saying "ana love and mia hugs!"how gay is that?! and people are teaming up to kill themselves. i'm sorry, but could never tell someone else to starve themselves. whoever has the guts to do that has a sick mind.
And then there's anorexia. It often branches off from something else- depression, OCD, a death, or problems in life. The person wants either to 1.) lose weight2.) gain control 3.) cope with problems and sure, actual "anorexics" might be found on pro ana sites, but they did not ask to have an eating disorder. it just happened.
so in conclusion, pro-ana's ask for an eating disorder, anorexics don't ask for an eating disorder, but it happens and they may be found on pro-ana sites.
if you're pro-ana/mia, hey that's cool, all the ana love and mia hugs to you,yeah gag me. sorry if you don't agree but i just know it's true. i can't believe you want an ED. you have issues.
sorry just had to say that. it's been bothering me.
yes today i went back to school shoppin and i got lots of stuff... some converses yay... and such. then i went to equestrian practice til 8:30... tomorrow we're going to kustom dezins to look into getting shirts or something.
and tomorrow night i'm going over to the dance center to talk with amy because she might want my help there. yahoo!
i am not looking forward to school at all whatsoever. the stress of balancing school, homework, dance, and a job is not my idea of fun. especially with having dance on 3 days a week this year, i don't know how i will be able to make money when i'm always gone. i need gas money dude, i'll be driving by the end of november..
well i pretty much have not updated in a long while-- this is mostly because... actually i don't really know why i haven't updated.
anyways, life has been okay.
there's still the occasional troubles with friends-- being forgotten and left out, but things are starting to improve.
i'm very nervous about starting school soon. i always do really good in the summer but once school starts i'm not so hot anymore.
i had a dream the other night that it was the first day of school and i was tardy to my first class which was band ((i'm not in band?!!)) and it was taught by our geometry teacher.
go figure.
tomorrow i'm leaving for cedar point with my youth group. should be fun for the most part. kinda brings back memories from last year when i went-- i wouldn't eat the pizza, especially in front of everyone, but i did eat some cotton candy while no one was looking.
Yesterday i went over to Ms Kline's after school to help clean the horse stalls and prepare for the show on saturday... equestrian practice got cancelled because of rain.
Tonite i'm going over there to spend the night and head off early in the morning for a horse show. kina weird cuz she's also my geometry teacher...
and i got lots of stuff... some converses yay... and such. then i went to equestrian practice til 8:30... tomorrow we're going to kustom dezins to look into getting shirts or something.
yahoo!